Dear You,
I used to wonder why.
Oh how I would cry & I’d cry, I used to blame you for the hurt that I felt inside.
I constantly replayed and restructured the story in my head, on what you did and what you said.
I’d ask why I wasn’t good enough for you, why was it not true?
I’d contemplate how I could prove to you that I am worthier than what you put me through, but this only lead to me hurting myself even more, trying to pursue something that couldn’t be restored.
I’d wonder when karmic revenge would send you back the pain that you so mindlessly put onto me to mend, but I knew that just playing pretend & waiting for revenge would not help this pain to end.
What did I do to deserve such malice? It’s like I was just another one of your abandoned, empty rooms in your haunted palace.
However, as I heal the hurt and core wounds that have been buried and suppressed within, the more that I see you as just a long lost friend, who was sent to help me love who I truly am.
You see my old friend, the more that I feel, the more that I heal, and the more that I heal, the more that I reveal.
I have revealed that you didn’t actually do the seething, I was already grieving, and I blamed you for the wounds that were already bleeding.
you showed me the parts of myself that I didn’t want to see, you were just a mirror reflecting the pain that was already inside of me.
The more that I read and study these hidden stories of myself, the more that I understand why you never chose to read those hidden stories on your own bookshelf.
But I promise my friend, as scary as it is to comprehend, you no longer need to be frightened or pretend that there is no shadow within, as facing your shadow is the key to becoming more enlightened.
Instead of wasting energy and hoping that Karma has you up next in her queue, I now find myself saying thank you, and even saying I love you.
And if you are reading this, you may not believe what I am saying to even be true,
But I do love you, because you are me, and I am you.
This really hits home for me!!! Twenty plus years ago someone who I thought the world of , she was the big sister I never had. We would have lunch dates , shopping ( she was my program outreach person) I enjoyed every month when we got together!!!! But , I don’t know what happend or what changed. One day , she never said anything , she just walked away. She went on to a new career. I thought as the years went by I would forget her and move on. Yes I moved on as she did , but I was still hurting deep inside. Only a few years ago she appeared on facebook. When I tried to restart a friendship she quickly closed her Facebook page , as if I was never part of her life!!!! I now hurt more than ever , and I can’t let go!!!! It’s not easy for me to accept rejection. I tried sending her letters , no response. How can a person treat you so wonderful and special just walk away and pretend you meant nothing to them!!!!😪💔
Thank you for sharing your story, I am sorry for the hurt that you went through. Sending you much love and BIG hugs <3
This is the most beautiful thing I ever read , it really expresses the truth. Thank you for sharing on pintrest.
Thank you for reading <3